Twenty five years since ‘Pac’s death, Smith admits he felt insecure about his then-girlfriend’s close relationship with the late rapper, who attended the Baltimore School for the Arts with Jada as a teen.
“Though they were never intimate, their love for each other is legendary – they defined ‘ride or die,’” Smith writes in the book. “In the beginning of our relationship, my mind was tortured by their connection. He was PAC! and I was me. He triggered the perception of myself as a coward. I hated that I wasn’t what he was in the world, and I suffered a raging jealousy: I wanted Jada to look at me like that.”
He goes on to reveal that he felt a “twisted kind of victory” when she ultimately chose him over ‘Pac.
“If she chose me over Tupac, there was no way I could be a coward,” the 54-year-old actor said. “I have rarely felt more validated… I was in a room with Tupac on multiple occasions, but I never spoke to him. The way Jada loved Pac rendered me incapable of being friends with him. I was too immature.”