If you are trying to break in, sometimes it helps to work for the guys doing the breaking. Some people can't handle being the person taking the tickets instead of the person at the show, getting coffee for the person getting great shots, or fashioning a sandwich for a fashion designer. It's usually best to suck it up, swallow your pride, and get as close to the game as you can. Granted, sometimes this is a counterproductive move. I know people who went into publishing and grew to hate writing or became film production assistants and never made another short. Look, if being close to what you love kills your passion, it might be that you never really loved it that much to begin with. In the meantime, grab some coffee and try to learn as much as you can from the masters.