Who is Angel Haze?

Her Relationship With Religion

Angel Haze: “I had a really fucked up relationship with religion. I don’t believe in it. I think it’s chaotic, manipulative bullshit. As far as spiritual deities, I do believe in God and spirituality, even though it’s going to take me a long time to get there. But it’s out there.

“I’ve always had a horrible relationship with religion because I grew up as an innocent bystander. I refer to it as as cult because it was. Seeing all the things that they did to younger girls and to older girls, to manipulate people...It’s like a wild god on campus and everybody’s excuse was, ‘God told me to do this.’ It was fucked up for me.

“They were fucked up. They were getting 15 years old girls pregnant and doing the most crazy shit. The prophet told my mom that God told him that she was supposed to be his next wife. His wife was gonna die and my mom was supposed to be his next wife, so she had to stay there and sleep with him while he was sleeping with his wife. Mind you, his wife is still alive to this day. It was a manipulation type of thing and he was doing it with every single woman in the church. There’s so many people that have kids by him there, even young girls. It was just crazy.”

 

They were getting 15 years old girls pregnant and doing the most crazy shit. The prophet told my mom that God told him that she was supposed to be his next wife. His wife was gonna die and my mom was supposed to be his next wife, so she had to stay there and sleep with him while he was sleeping with his wife. Mind you, his wife is still alive to this day.

 

“After about 12, my mom gave up on the church idea. I don’t know, I can’t really speak for her. I guess if you spend so much time on something and you don’t get there, then you never want to do it.

“I think about three years ago everybody left that church, so it kind of ended. The pastor died of cancer. He actually died hating God, which is crazy. It’s such an ironic thing.”

“The guy told my mom when we left Michigan that God was going to kill me and my older brother, that we weren’t supposed to live past a certain age, that God was gonna be very angry with her. Blah, blah, blah. A couple of years after that, until maybe I was 16, my mom was still living under the fear that God was gonna take our lives, that we weren’t supposed to do certain things like listen to secular music. We weren’t allowed to listen to like hip-hop and R&B, because it was a sure way to land yourself in hell. At 16, my mom kind of got over it and was like, ‘Who cares? Just do whatever you want.’”

“I hated it, I really did. I was going through my own type of shit, and then to have all of the extra stuff added was a really sucky way to grow up.”

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