After being drafted by the Cleveland Browns in 2014, Johnny Manziel was pretty hopeful about his future; however, his friends didn’t share his optimism. 

“At the time, all my boys, everyone in my corner was telling me, ‘You don't want to go to Cleveland.’ Like, ‘Fuck that Fuck that!’,” he told Kevin Hart on the latest episode of Cold As Balls. “I was more optimistic about it. I looked at the players they had. I was cool with it.”

Though the 25-year-old athlete claims he went in with a positive attitude, that all changed as soon as he set foot in Ohio for the very first time.

“Once I landed and went to Berea, Ohio, for the first time, I was like, ‘Can I go back to college?’” he said. “I don't know where I'm at. It’s cold! I don't like it.”

The 25-year-old athlete told Hart he didn’t expect the league to be so hard, and that his failures in the sport eventually caused problems in his personal life.

“I didn't know what it took. I didn't know how much hard work you really had to put in to like be good,” he explained. “I just felt like when I went out that first day and I was like, ‘All right, I'm gonna go see how this thing goes.’ And it went so bad. That just compounded into my home life […] If I'm not doing good at what my job is and what love, then how can I go home and be happy about other things that are going on?”

Manziel vaguely discussed his past controversies, which included allegations of substance abuse and domestic violence. The athlete said he doesn’t expect anyone to feel sorry for him, and claims most of his problems have been “self-inflected”; but now that he’s had time to reflect, he’s ready to look the future.

“What can I do moving forward? Because I can’t change how I was,” he said. “That’s all I can do, and try and stack enough good days together, and stack enough things together to get back to where I want to be.”

He continued: “I got knocked down. I have a dream and a goal of getting back to playing on the NFL stage, and I’m not gonna stop until that happens.”

You can check out the full interview above.