Somehow, despite Ctrl being loaded with some of 2017's most compelling songwriting, SZA didn't win any of the five Grammys she was up for last month. In a new interview with GQ Wednesday, SZA reflected on those nominations and shared her thoughts on the creative vibes of Best New Artist winner Alessia Cara.
"You feel like you're really falling short and you fucking failed [your fans]," SZA said of the online reaction to her being shut out at the Grammys, adding that this era of her career is ultimately "something much bigger than me and a fucking trophy."
After Grammys night, which was celebrated by going back to the hotel and smoking "a bunch of blunts," SZA started seeing the nominations in a different light. "I felt a shift," she said. "Like, I came a really long-ass way. I didn't imagine this album doing much anyway. I was so grateful to even have been honored by being nominated and having so many people fuck with my music. I feel like at some point you start to get sucked up into the accolades and you're like, 'Oh, this is what this is about, and this is what quantifies my success or me as an artist or a human being.'"
The biggest lesson SZA took away from it all was to not let your ego decide what something means for you and your art. "I didn't make my album with the Grammys in mind, and I'm definitely not gonna make my second one with the Grammys in mind," she said. "I'm just gonna make really good fucking music and just try to touch people." See SZA's full interview, during which she reveals she "really, really" fucks with Cara's music, right here.