Producer: Lord Finesse
Album: Ready To Die
Label: Bad Boy
Ready To Die gave us a first-class trip into the mind of Christopher Wallace. We saw all facets—some bright, most dark. Two recurring themes on his debut were depression and desperation, both inflamed by street life during New York's early '90s crack boom.
“Suicidal Thoughts” found Big conflicted about the life he was living, expressing such troubling thoughts as: “I know my mother wish she got a fucking abortion,” and saying he preferred to spend eternity in hell than with the so-called "goodie goodies" who ostracized him on earth.
While his will was weak he hit Puff one last time to get his final thoughts off his chest: “I'm sick of niggas lyin', I'm sick of bitches hawkin'/Matter fact, I'm sick of talkin'.” The song ends with a single gunshot followed by the sound of a heart stopping and a phone left off the hook. Intense.